Justin.tv Claims Life of a Teenager?

Yesterday, I posted an article about the dangers of social networking and now a news had broken out which had made this dangers more real. A reality in which the person and the users/watchers has to blame. Abraham Biggs committed suicide live on justin.tv on sight of more than 15,000 viewers with some encouraging him to do it, others telling him not too and others who were shocked watching it unfold.

Many users of bodybuilding.com in which Biggs first send his treat to do suicide indicated that he was a Troll, meaning a forum trasher. Being a forumer myself I know that people like them end o post things which are not to be taken seriously. They are doing it in order to piss off forum administrators. Biggs posted the suicide announcement in the "Misc" forum which many labeled as a trash discussion forum.

When Biggs went live on the internet via Justin.tv he swallowed pills used for his bipolar disorder, or manic depression. After a while he went to sleep which many viewers even laugh about but it was not just sleep... soon after he lay dead on his bed in his father's Pembroke Pines house Wednesday afternoon, the camera still running 12 hours after announcing his intentions online around 3 a.m.

Here is the suicide note from Abraham Biggs which started it all...

Ask a guy who is gonna OD (again) tonight anything

To Whom It May Concern,

I am going to leave this for whoever stumbles across my bookmarks later on. I hate myself and I hate living. I think that if someone who knows me reads this they will know who I am. So I will leave this unsigned. I am an a@#hole. I have let everyone down and I feel as though I will never change or never improve. I am in love with a girl and I know that I am not good enough for her. I have come to believe that my life has all been meaningless. I keep trying and I keep failing. I have thought about and attempted suicide many times in the past. I used to think of my failure as some mystical way of telling me that I was really meant for something meaningful. The only thing I dread, besides the pain, is the way my family will suffer. I do not want my mother or father to think that it was anything they did that lead me to kill myself. I never really had any plans of leaving a note. I thought that I would not be able to describe why I want to do this and I am right. There is no way to tell you or anyone else why I dread every new day. My father had such high expectations for me and tried to give me every opportunity to improve upon myself. I let him down. I think that I am a major disappointment to him. I have a job but I?m always broke and I am in college but barely, I show up to class but that?s about it.

I want my life to end. I am tired of f@#$ing up everything. I am tired of people always telling me that they do not like me. I am tired of trying to be decent. I hope that someone finds this post and I hope that my parents know that I f@#$ed up not them. It is my fault I screwed up my own life. The hate that rages within me, rages not for those I love so dearly or those who have crossed my path. This hate rages full force towards me and only me. I have long forgiven those who've hurt me, but I have not and cannot come to terms to forgive myself for the things I have done to myself, and the things I've done to hurt those in my life.

You have all touched my life in one way or another, especially those whom I call family. I cannot tell you how sorry I am for ending my life the way I did. I hope that you can all find it in your heart to see it as way for me not suffering anymore and that I am finally at rest with myself, for being at rest with the guilt that constantly ate at me for so long.

Please forgive me all for taking my own life so early. I tried so hard to fight against this strong battle. I have reached out for help so many times, and yet I believe, I was turned away because of the things I did, that it is a punishment I am willing to take, for I know that being who I am has only brought myself and others pain. I love you all and will forever live within the memories we created. Forgive me.

Love always and forever,

As for my signature I will leave you with a quote so that if anyone reads this they will know it's me, "Can?t feel pain if your dead? Just Saying"

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